“I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me.” Acts 20:24

“I pray that you never look for what you can get by trusting God, nor even cling to the things of this life, no matter how important they seem to you. Trust completely in God. He will not deceive you, but trusting the dark desires still hidden in your heart will. Look for no sense of certainty. Do not even look forward to better things. The present moment is your sole treasure for here is where the will of God is found. Let God work, and view each moment as if it were the whole sweep of eternity.” Fenelon

My life

I don’t know if you are anything like me, but I have a tendency to think and worry a lot about my life. I tend to want to plan almost everything. So understandably, I still struggle to fully understand this verse, “For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.” Colossians 3:3

If I am supposed to be dead how could I possibly “think” about my life? The above verse testifies to the fact that my life is hidden even from myself. Please let the weight of that truth sink in. This doesn’t mean that we stop thinking about our lives or that we stop being good stewards of what God gives us, but it simply means that we stop thinking that our lives are our own.

As people of the Cross, our lives are hidden in Christ.

“Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, spend a year there, buy and sell, and make a profit”; whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that.” But now you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. There, to him who knows to do good and does not do it, to him it is sin.” James 4:13-17

This hidden life

I was talking with a brother in Christ months ago and I was telling him the story of God’s hand upon my life and he looked at me and said something to this nature, “It sounds like God put the fear of Him in you before He introduced Himself to you.” And I was really struck by his analysis of my walk with the Lord. I was struck by his statement for two reasons: 1. It was true and 2. I couldn’t believe that I never saw and never knew to that extent how faithful my heavenly Father has always, always been to me. My God taught me to fear Him long before I fell in love with Him. What a privilege to be known by You, to walk in Your ways, and to be lead by You, my God!

What a beautiful and satisfying journey it has been walking with You Father.

“And the Lord commanded us to observe all these statutes, to fear the Lord our God, for our good always, that He might preserve us alive, as it is this day. Then it will be righteousness for us, if we are careful to observe all these commandments before the Lord our God, as He commanded us.” Deuteronomy 6:24-25

“But to you who fear My name
The Sun of Righteousness shall arise
With healing in His wings;
And you shall go out
And grow fat like stall-fed calves.” Malachi 4:2

Father God, thank you for satisfying my mouth with Your goodness. Thank you for instilling in me to fear Your name. Papa, let me always be content to be hidden in You. Let my life always point to You. Let my heart sing You praises each second of my breathing. Let me be forever in awe of Your Majesty. God? I love You more than this life. Truly, “You have anointed my head with oil; my cup runs over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalm 23:5-6

As I was spending some time with My father, He reminded me of His unwavering faithfulness and leading over my life. And I wondered why I still fear His plans sometimes, I then repented for ever feeling fearful of His hand. He has never abandoned me but instead has always carried me.

The Lord then took me to His words to Jeremiah, “Then the word of the Lord came to me, saying: “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you…” Jeremiah 1:4
The wonder of those words makes my heart want to skip a beat.

Father, You knew my unformed substance. You had a plan for my life before You gave me my first breath.

“For you formed my inward parts;
    You knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are Your works;
   My soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from you,
When I was being made in secret,
    intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
In your book were written, every one of them,
     the days that were formed for me,
     when as yet there was none of them.
How precious to me are your thoughts,
     O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
If I would count them, they are more than
       the sand.
I awake, and I am still with you.” Psalm 139:15-18

This life, Your way

You hid me in You
You unravel me with Your love
You intimately know me,
Father, I am forever indebted to You.
You hid me in You,
I am forever learning about
This mystery
You formed the sun and the moon
You spoke into existence my
Unformed substance and here I was.

You awake me to the wonder of You
You have opened my eyes to Your glory
You have opened the eyes of my heart
To Your love and majesty

Forgive me Father,
For I speak of things I know nothing of.
But isn’t that where my glory lies?
That I intimately walk with a God
I can’t explain.
That I am united with the giver of Life.

I continue to speak of things I know nothing of,
You have Your home in me?
Father, in me?
Why do I neglect This love?
I resolve to live a life of sacrifice
Father, where else would I live if
Not hidden in You?

Can I ever thank You enough for always
Desiring me?
How in the world do you explain being
Desired by the Giver of life?
Father, I vow,
In the strength that You provide
That I will always live my life in Your ways,
And in Your love.
so help me, God!